Shane

everything is quiet

zero2evolution@aol.com — Thu, 18 Jul 2002 04:11:19 GMT

ahhh....i come home and to my surprise... no mother!!!!!!! woohoo......but today was fun though. i watched american pie and tried to steal somas but somebodies older sister likes to be 10 years old and would tell...haha just playing! i got my third eye blind cd back and it still rocks the same as it ever did but my hemp necklace smells like girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn you ashley! how am i supposed to pick up chicks smelling like girl! just kidding! i'm a dork.

much better today!

zero2evolution@aol.com — Wed, 17 Jul 2002 18:17:29 GMT

so i just woke up and i feel much better. thats the great thing about sleep. i think i might eat some pancakes with peanut butter on them......hahaha...sorry jodi! none for you this time(even though you don't like them, i think)! i like mine with peanut butter and syrup on them but everyone thinks that sounds nasty. "don't knock it till you try it folks!" ok i'm finished writing.........

wasted life..........

zero2evolution@aol.com — Wed, 17 Jul 2002 06:10:30 GMT

well now i guess everything i've went through i did not see but i knew was coming. being unable to predict what was so predictable is the hardest thing to fathom for most but until they too are blinded by the truth, they should not attempt to understand me. i know that dwelling on past events only leads you nowhere but why do i keep making that left turn? i guess it's my nature seeing as how i am right handed. one day i will look back on this and realize my foolishness was once such sweet happiness and that my immaturity, as whole, made up for the maturity i so needed. but now i'm dumbfounded. from what i see, half of what was once my life is dandy, and yet the half that shouldn,t morn, does. not a day passes in which i give my sorrows to the beast. i guess thats me. i'm the one to blame in this double standard in which i lived. thats alright though, who cares. as long as my sheets are hung out to dry and those that smell of lavender flowers, are neatly pressed on the bed. sometimes when we break the ice, we crack it a little too hard, making us fall in. knowing this, i thought someone would be there, and yet while i'm drowning, i look up and see a face. this face i thought would save me. i see this face look away as if i wasn't even there. but....i guess thats me.

(thanks for calling today kelly. you gave me something to write about in my journal)

for whoever wants to read.......

zero2evolution@aol.com — Tue, 16 Jul 2002 02:51:36 GMT

so today i smoked pot and that was fun. i got the munchies like a motherfucker. i always do for some reason. i think it was grossing my friends out. i didnt care though because i love to eat (even though it may not look like it). after that i went to my mother's boyfriends house and played basketball. i was the man tonight! oh yeah, and the meatloaf was good too! so i'm home now and drinking my last beer which is one of the worst things to happen to me all day! just kidding(kinda). well maybe later i'll write a poem or give my opinion on a topic that i will choose, and if you start to get offended by it, please read the rest. it will only get worse.

im bored......................

zero2evolution@aol.com — Mon, 15 Jul 2002 02:25:41 GMT

i think i will type a poem that i have written.......

my life.
holding onto my own.
living deeds are never done,
but dead ones parish forever.
not knowing what my thoughts could do,
but i would change them.
something is taking over.
mind, body, soul, but most of all,
state of being.
so many things rolling,
pacing back and forth,
for no reason.
glory is for those who make themselves.
but there is wicked laughter, wicked trance.
am i worth listening to?
can anyone hear me?
life can stand still but only once.
take these thoughts and cherish them,
for they are all we have left.
destruction can happen,
but we will be strong.
making it through.
united as one.
one?
one as a whole or single?
hopefully a whole.
wanting tremendous accomplishments.
striving for what is right.
now everything is right.

.........im not going to tell the whole world what this means to me but if you really want to know, e-mail me and ill tell you.

um....................hi.

zero2evolution@aol.com — Sun, 14 Jul 2002 21:44:41 GMT

well this is my first entry so ill just give everyone my personal quote.
-the key to not having stress in ones life is something everyone possesses and yet they seldom use "common sense"